I mean the "when I wake up in the morning I will do xyz" type of plans. Normally at night I think: Ok, I'm finally going to fall asleep at a reasonable hour, then when I wake up I'm going to eat breakfast, workout, do blogging activities, work, eat healthy, etc.", but then I spend hours, and I mean HOURS just trying to sleep.
It's not from not being tired, because some days I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep. I just lay in bed crocheting, reading, something to try and just lead me to sleep. I've tried the get up if you can't sleep method, the nyquil yourself to sleep method, and even prescribed sleeping pills, but I always get back to this rut.
I spend my night trying to sleep and then I do sleep, poorly, or what I think is shitty sleep because a few hours after I get up I am so tired that no matter what I do I end up napping. I don't try and nap, I just do. I've fallen asleep: watching tv (shows I want to see), working, crocheting, reading, playing video games - I mean c'mon, PLAYING VIDEO GAMES. Not only do I sleep, but I'm so hard to wake up. I turn off my alarm (not snooze), I have full conversations with my parents before returning to sleep, and I don't remember half of the stuff that was said to me.
I'm so tired of it. I'm mostly tired of not being able to function and do what I need to. I wouldn't care if I got only 4 hours of sleep if I could run on it properly and not go into a coma (what I do can't be considered napping anymore).
I am at a loss of how to fix this poorly constructed cycle. I've stayed up for 24 hours in hopes that I'll just reset, I've just let my body do what it wants, I just don't know.
Does anyone have any ideas?
Because I'm so fed up with not being able to do simple, everyday tasks. I want to make this blog better too, but I can't because why spend time learning to create a bomb diggity blog just to not fill it with anything. I want to do craft diy's, recipes, book reviews, more about how my hip is changing my life, but until I have the energy to do simple things like work, I can't make this blog what I want it to be.
In desperation,
Jessica
I used to have a problem where I literally went two days straight without sleeping at all, and then usually I'd only sleep three hours, and, when lucky, five. Unfortunately, it was because I was (still am, though) a terribly frightened person. I was afraid of *everything* and I couldn't close my eyes at night. And then when I got over it, I was so used to not sleeping, I couldn't drift off.
ReplyDeleteI can't nap, I don't know, my body doesn't allow me to nap-- I've tried, but I can't. What I do to try to sleep is to not use any sort of electronics (TV/computer/anything with a bright screen), not drink or eat anything for at least an hour beforehand, and do jumping jacks and exercise before so I'm worn out. I make sure to not have any lights on and just smuggle my face in my bed and pillows to make sure that my eyes don't get used to the dark and I don't get distracted by things. Sometimes, when my thoughts are too scary to ponder on, I sleep with my iPod on, too, with peaceful music to help me cry myself to sleep.
Okay, maybe don't do that last part? But... indeed, I hope this helps a tad!
Jessica | Vixenelle
Oh no! I'm sorry you get so freaked out right before bed. I used to do the same thing though. When I was younger I didn't understand that my house was settling and so I thought that there were angry ghosts in the hall right outside my bedroom.
DeleteI guess I should try the iPod vs. falling asleep to episodes of The First 48. I like noise when I sleep, but I need to know what I'm going to hear - no surprise noises. When I was in my apartment I fell asleep to episodes of Will & Grace. It's my absolute favorite show. I've had to buy a second set of the DVDs because I wore my first ones out..oy.
I'm going to try and do the computer thing tomorrow..since it's been ruined already tonight! I'll let you know how it goes =]
It's so hard to get back in a rhythm. Decide what time to go to bed and stop all electronics at least an hour before. Make a calming routine to get you ready for sleep, a bath or reading or meditating. Sounds funny but I find telling myself "don't go to sleep" helps me fall asleep before I know it.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard but try not to stress and you will get back into a normal routine within a few days. The secret is to keep to a routine, even if you dont feel tired.
Good luck x
May the don't go to sleep will work, because now I just think AHHH GO TO SLEEEEP and I fail. Reverse psychology might be the answer!
DeleteHi Jessica! Wow, I'm so sorry you're having so much trouble with this. :( I don't really have any advice beyond what has already been said here ... I have some sleep issues myself, and I haven't quite figured out the solution yet. (Not as bad as what you're going through, though!) But I'll keep you in prayer and I hope that your body can get into a more regular sleep routine - I know its so hard to function when you're so sleep deprived. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteThank you!!
DeleteYour blog, Pinterest, FB... where WON'T I stalk you? Lol, anyway I have about the same problem with keeping my plans as you, except mine is not an inability to sleep, it's an inability to stop internetting. But one of my friends was having similar sleep issues, and he ended up just shifting his whole schedule so that he was going to bed significantly earlier than usual so he'd have plenty of time to just lie there, and wind down, and finally fall asleep. If he can tell he's not going to get to sleep on his own, he has some really weak OTC sleep aids that he takes.
ReplyDeleteI might suggest reading, but if you're like me that doesn't help much because I find my mind running away a little while I'm reading. You know, picturing the characters, getting all caught up in the story. So what I'd recommend is maybe try out audiobooks (hopefully avoiding action-adventury excitement). Or, find a good app that lets you mix soothing sounds and fall asleep to that.
...or just get online and talk to me because you know I'll be up, anyway :P
-Carrie