I mean the "when I wake up in the morning I will do xyz" type of plans. Normally at night I think: Ok, I'm finally going to fall asleep at a reasonable hour, then when I wake up I'm going to eat breakfast, workout, do blogging activities, work, eat healthy, etc.", but then I spend hours, and I mean HOURS just trying to sleep.
It's not from not being tired, because some days I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep. I just lay in bed crocheting, reading, something to try and just lead me to sleep. I've tried the get up if you can't sleep method, the nyquil yourself to sleep method, and even prescribed sleeping pills, but I always get back to this rut.
I spend my night trying to sleep and then I do sleep, poorly, or what I think is shitty sleep because a few hours after I get up I am so tired that no matter what I do I end up napping. I don't try and nap, I just do. I've fallen asleep: watching tv (shows I want to see), working, crocheting, reading, playing video games - I mean c'mon, PLAYING VIDEO GAMES. Not only do I sleep, but I'm so hard to wake up. I turn off my alarm (not snooze), I have full conversations with my parents before returning to sleep, and I don't remember half of the stuff that was said to me.
I'm so tired of it. I'm mostly tired of not being able to function and do what I need to. I wouldn't care if I got only 4 hours of sleep if I could run on it properly and not go into a coma (what I do can't be considered napping anymore).
I am at a loss of how to fix this poorly constructed cycle. I've stayed up for 24 hours in hopes that I'll just reset, I've just let my body do what it wants, I just don't know.
Does anyone have any ideas?
Because I'm so fed up with not being able to do simple, everyday tasks. I want to make this blog better too, but I can't because why spend time learning to create a bomb diggity blog just to not fill it with anything. I want to do craft diy's, recipes, book reviews, more about how my hip is changing my life, but until I have the energy to do simple things like work, I can't make this blog what I want it to be.